Well... as long as I've been on deviantART I don't think I've done a whole lot of communicating. I've favorited a lot of artwork, but have neglected to take the time to comment on each piece to let the artist know what I admired about that specific piece of artwork and why I favorited it. I also haven't been replying much to the comments on my personal page either. I'd like to apologize for this. I know I've been tired and so I've been falling into my tendency to do as little as possible so I can do as much as possible, if that makes sense. I'm also still getting a feel for the community, and overcoming my shyness and lack of trust isn't always easy. I think my lack of content on my page is also hitting my confidence here a little. I feel like I haven't done enough to be part of the community yet. I'm hoping that I can buy a nice scanner for my upcoming birthday in March and at least upload more of my old artwork. I haven't been able to make use of my sister's. I'm still stuck on my creative block. I think I need to find a way to build up enough confidence to overcome my hesitation.

I'm also in the middle of planning to launch my own website featuring my character concepts. The artwork won't be my own initially, but artwork I'll commission from others based off of my designs. I hope it goes well. I'm going to have to figure out what to pay the artists. I want to pay them for the initial commissioning of the artwork, but I also want to share with them a percentage of any profits made from the website and any merchandise sold if I can. So much to think about. I'm horrible with research, contacting the necessary people, building networks and filling out forms. My brain just grinds to a halt and wants to explode from all the stress. I'm going to need a secretary I think.

I had a rough time of it recently with the winter holidays, but I made it through. There's the one last hurdle of Valentine's Day to make it past and then my year will truly begin. I hope I can pay off the new debt and save up a little money. I need to find a way to prevent all these strong emotions from overwhelming me so often. I hate being derailed so frequently and for so long. It slows down everything in my life to a crawl. Maybe if I had a strong support network then things wouldn't be so stressful.

One of these days I'll need to learn this CSS and spice up my page a little.